Here I go again...

Hmmmmm.....So, yet another meaningless day passes by. Was up till late last night punching numbers for my latest report. A mind numbing experience, and the figures just ran into columns which ran into pages till my eyes literally started to cross and a gentle haze settled over my mind. The consequence? The next day, my brain completely shut down refusing to process anything leaving me all edgy, nervous, just waiting for a chance to dig my knife in someone's chest. I used to have a solution for stuff like this earlier. Blogging was one therapeutic experience, where I used to channelise all my nervous energy into my writings. As soon as my fingers used to hit the keyboard, the words just poured. By the end of the post, I used to be calm and had an amazing article ready to be posted. But, that requires certain kind of conditioning, certain kind of discipline, a level of comfort, to pour out your heart to something so disinterested. Difficult to redevelop, especially when you have someone whom you know will give you their complete attention, if you go to them instead of the blog. Hence the reluctantance to come back to my blog, testified by a long gap between my previous post and this one. But, come on, nobody should have to take this kind of "dumping" their entire lives. Anyway, I don't think its a very good idea to let your partner know you have the case of "crazies" before marriage too often. :-D. I should be able to tackle your emotional upheavels and burn-outs myself once in a while. That's what being independent is all about right? And blogging had such a positive outcome last time. I totally bowled over my soulmate with my earlier blog. So, bottom line, I am gonna give this one more chance...Last time I connected to my life partner through blogging...Another story, another time perhaps...Lets see where I land this time...;-)